Sunday, September 26, 2010

pain

when it comes to pain there really is no way around it. unless you have no pain at all. lol . otherwise pain pretty much comes on 2 lvls psychologically or physically. personally i think that the first one is alot worse on urself. when something hurts your brain its the worst cause thats something you will think about the rest of you life. when losing a friend i think thats the worst type of pain you can possibly have and it really does hurt. my friend lost his really good friend to suicide during this past week. he called me the morning after and i could feel the anguish that was in his heart. i know what its like to lose someone close to you i have lost many close to me and i still am sad over those people. this type of pain stays in your heart pretty much forever and i know that it sounds like alot but there is silver lineing to all of this so listen closely. you have to use your memories. think about all the best things u had with that person the best even the worst and hold them very close to your heart. the wont ever go away but at least when u do this u will always have the good memories of them. that is what u should keep about this person. it will help u in the long run that when u get sad and think about this person automatically u will also think about all the amazing things u did with this person. so all and all keep the things u cherish most as close to your heart as u can, because one day u might meet them again and the second u see them ull know exactly what to talk about.

"memories are the souls of sinners"

Sunday, February 28, 2010

timing

sometimes things don't plan out the way you always want them to and if you notice at times it can be the simplest things like timing. sometimes when you want something good to happen you maybe will plan shit out or make sure you know what your doing ... pretty much anything to make your good thing happen. well i just wanna note that its hard as fuck. i am always fucked by timing there are so many things in my life where i did something to early or i acted to late and it really suck. solution make sure you make up your mind. make sure you know what you want. i know that's so hard to say cause i too never know what i want. and now that this whole timing thing keeps fucking up my life. it has been ruining my chances to be happy. my friend told me that he was talking to this girl and she mentioned how they could have been dating but at the time he was hung up on his ex and did not know what to do. and now he is so lonely and upset and he sits in his room and wishes he could sit and be sad but have a girl friend he can go talk to. worst part is he knows they could have dated and it could have worked. he looks back and thinks why did i do what i did and he knows he made the wrong decision he knows what he should have done. but then he snaps back into reality and realizes that it can never happen. and to me that the worst part about it all knowing that it was right there in your fingertips a chance to be happy and you let it slip away. it one of the worst feelings i get knowing that if i had just done one little thing different i could be happy right now. but in life sometimes things are made for a reason because they are supposed to happen and then there is my other theory that even though they say we have a destiny when we are born i think our destiny changes with the stupid shit we do. when we do something wrongs it just steers us away from our destiny. that's really what it is when you look at it its we have this destiny and when we do things wrong we get further from it and when we do something right it puts where we are supposed to be going it puts us in the right direction.



" so all in all i think that we need to be vigilant and see whats coming at us and make sure we are ready for it cause in the end your the only one whose getting hurt by a wrong decision "

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

what to do with love

love what a fucked up idea i mean i understand it and i know how it comes and goes but like then when it comes down to what is really supposed to happen nothing u prepare for ever works its sucks. i think that sometimes love is just not for me and thats even worse because i think i have a big a heart, a heart that is capable of such love. there was a girl i thought that i could love but she said she could not open her heart not just to me but anyone. she said that being with someone would make her hurt more and that she was just going to give up. idk that girl has been long passed after countless hours of trying to undersatand she threw me away like it was nothing like my love ment nothing to her i dont get it what i have to do to make love come to me i know its something that come naturally but fuck that i want to be happy this is the most unfair situation no matter what i do if i wait for a long time i suffer and feel alone and if i try my luck i get shot down and hurt even more so therer is no sensable solution to any of it ... but light at the end of the tunnel for readers its only me maybe there are other but rele whats happening is all on my i fucked up one to many times lost the love of my life and now im fucked for the rest of it but to everyone else i think that u should never give up on love it is the strongest trhing u will ever share with someone and it lasts with u forever. i think that most of us today should realize that not everyone is destined for no love i mean i know this shit is happening to me is bad but im gonna keep on keeping on only cause i know one day things will turn for the better one day u will be ok one day we will all be ok




"with out pain there can be no love"